Okay…I have given you the negative side of my mid-life crisis so now I will give you the positive. You know how you here younger people saying they are “finding themselves.” Well, I think mid-life crisis is all about finding yourself and who you really are.
I’ve already talked about this but I’m starting to say what you think rather than what you think others want to hear. I’m not trying to be cruel but I’m also not being guarded for fear of hurting anyone’s feelings. Now, I’m still using discretion if I think someone might be genuinely insulted but still trying to be open and honest.
Letting go of the emotions is a benefit. I care less about showing true emotion. I didn’t have a problem showing anger but now I am more whiling to openly show all my emotions. It is a positive in my eyes to be able to show compassion without worrying about one of the “guys” giving me a hard time. My Brazilian daughter and Michael’s present and last girlfriend have all brought out a “soft side” in me. Oh yes, if I get a daughter-n-law or granddaughter neither will do be able to do wrong in my eyes.
No fear! When you’re young you aren’t fearless you’re just stupid. You are recklessly enthusiastic about everything. You dive into everything without thinking. At this age I like being more decisive and knowing I have the wisdom of a few years. I suppose no fear is a stretch but I would say I’m pretty fearless. I’m not scared or reluctant to do the things I want to do and I know the difference between reckless enthusiasm and a passionate interest.
When you think about it, I have the perspective of about half my life to know there is another half out there that needs filling. Now I think I know how I want to fill it. I have been able to set a few goals in the last month or so. I have set some short and long term goals. So I know what I want, when I want to get it and how to get it.
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